To most people, April 1st is April Fool’s Day. \u00a0 I will always think of it as the day my world came to an end. \u00a0 Oh, I am still alive, obviously, and functioning, but the world that meant so much to me no longer exists. \u00a0 It was replaced by a “lite” version of hell.<\/p>\n
It isn’t a movie or a fictional story, it is happening to me. \u00a0 So what does that mean? \u00a0 That means that the love of my life is no longer by my side and my heart is so broken that each day is a struggle just to get through. \u00a0 That means that my children’s lives are changed and that they must learn to be in two homes. \u00a0 That means that running a business with over 35 fellow coaches has become an enormous challenge and being there for all my members has become almost impossible.<\/p>\n
Yet I have a dream that will not die. \u00a0 It is replayed over and over in my head, constantly reminding me of what I must do. \u00a0 As a husband, I must remain ever faithful to the marriage that God created and no man can rend asunder. \u00a0 I must remain strong for the beautiful children from that marriage who need security and stability in their lives. \u00a0 I must be a leader to my team of coaches and show them that even in the most challenging times in our lives, we must still work for the betterment of those around us because their needs are so great. \u00a0 And I must fulfill my responsibility to my members to answer their questions and guide them to their goals to the best of my ability.<\/p>\n
Yes, life does have obstacles that seem almost insurmountable, but faith and trust in God will get us through our challenges and a brighter day will come. \u00a0 I will find refuge under His wings and be stronger for it. \u00a0 The words from the Josh Wilson song, “Before the Morning” will keep playing over and over in my head until the morning comes:<\/p>\n
Do you wonder why you have to
\nFeel the things that hurt you
\nIf there’s a God who loves you
\nWhere is He now<\/p>\n
Maybe there are things you can’t see
\nAnd all those things are happening
\nTo bring a better ending
\nSomeday somehow you’ll see you’ll see<\/p>\n
Would you dare would you dare to believe
\nThat you still have a reason to sing
\nCause the pain that you’ve been feeling
\nIt can’t compare to the joy that’s coming
\nSo hold on you gotta wait for the light
\nPress on and just fight the good fight
\nCause the pain that you’ve been feeling
\nIt’s just the dark before the morning<\/p>\n
My friend you know how this all ends
\nAnd You know where you’re going
\nYou just don’t know how you’ll get there
\nSo say a prayer<\/p>\n
And hold on cause there’s good for those who love God
\nBut life is not a snapshot
\nIt might take a little time but you’ll see the bigger picture<\/p>\n
Would you dare would you dare to believe
\nThat you still have a reason to sing
\nCause the pain that you’ve been feeling
\nIt can’t compare to the joy that’s coming
\nSo hold on you gotta wait for the light
\nPress on and just fight the good fight
\nCause the pain that you’ve been feeling
\nIt’s just the dark before the morning<\/p>\n
Once you feel the weight of glory
\nAll your pain will fade to memory
\nOnce you feel the weight of glory
\nAll your pain will fade to memory, memory, memory<\/p>\n
Would you dare would you dare to believe
\nThat you still got a reason to sing
\nCause the pain that you’ve been feeling
\nIt can’t compare to the joy that’s coming<\/p>\n
Would you dare would you dare to believe
\nThat you still got a reason to sing
\nCause the pain that you’ve been feeling
\nIt can’t compare to the joy that’s coming<\/p>\n
Come on you’ve gotta wait for the light
\nPress on and just fight the good fight
\nCause the pain that you’ve been feeling
\nIt’s just the hurt before the healing
\nOh the pain that you’ve been feeling
\nIt’s just the dark before the morning
\nBefore the morning<\/p>\n